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In Between the Cracks and Crevices
I’ve made it to a hotel room. I’m in lap of luxury, well almost, it’s a Hampton Suits. It’s Winter Haven, Florida. It’s Florida… At...

Jacob Landers
Sep 8, 20219 min read


Houston and Beyond
I thought I knew humidity, I was sure of it staying in Austin a few times over the last 10 years, I was wrong… It has been almost 30...

Jacob Landers
Aug 29, 20214 min read


Friday Morning Thoughts
This is where is starts, this is where is always starts, in my head. The doubt and the fear. I guess for someone who has changed their...

Jacob Landers
Aug 20, 20213 min read


Texas by Morning
I’m in Oklahoma, it's hot and muggy and these teeny tiny bugs have infiltrated my van. I think I killed at least 100 last night, maybe...

Jacob Landers
Aug 19, 20216 min read


47 and happiness
I’m 47 today, so weird to say that, 47. 50 is in my sights and I feel like I’m only 30. I can see the age in my eyes, the creases on my...

Jacob Landers
Aug 14, 20215 min read


Day One
I locked the door, documented the milage and left, it was 6:30 on a Wednesday evening. I went to see a friend to say goodbye, she said...

Jacob Landers
Aug 2, 20216 min read


June's Trip
I got to leave a day early, I was hoping to but had no expectation of doing it. I packed most of the stuff over the two nights prior,...

Jacob Landers
Jun 30, 202125 min read
I've Holes In My Brain
I feel like quitting, I want to give up cuz the multitude of these recent moments are getting to be too much. That’s life tho right, ups...

Jacob Landers
Apr 21, 20218 min read


Triple Gold Daytons
My apartment is filling up again, the more I look around the more new stuff appears. I care not for it. Having minimal objects throughout...

Jacob Landers
Mar 3, 20216 min read
You know I had a writing table once..
It's times like these where I miss my writing table. You know I sold it cuz I didn’t see having enough room in my storage for it. You...

Jacob Landers
Feb 11, 20215 min read
Neurosis
Neurosis – a relatively mild mental illness caused by organic disease involving symptoms of stress (depression, anxiety, obsessive...

Jacob Landers
Dec 27, 20204 min read


800 Threads to be Pulled
Being up at 3:30 is not the business, it’s a momentary lapse in my subconscious that says, “wake up, there’s stuff to think about.” Maybe...

Jacob Landers
Nov 10, 20205 min read


A Fool's Errand
Life has come back around to somewhat of a standstill, like an old train idling and waiting to leave the station. I guess a little...

Jacob Landers
Oct 16, 20204 min read


A Lifetime of Lessons in a 2 Month Refresher Course
We give it all away, we gather the remnants of what was and set it adrift into the cosmos. After years of trying, we start to understand...

Jacob Landers
Oct 1, 20204 min read
Upādāna
There is so much to ponder in the middle of the night. Over the last few hours it hasn’t been obsession, just thoughts in and out like...

Jacob Landers
Sep 23, 20205 min read
Thursday Morning
These days are too much most mornings, I want to say they are wild and unruly with my heart, but really they are more subtle and slow....

Jacob Landers
Sep 17, 20204 min read


sit, pray, write
I have been crazy as of late (like this is anything new), lit from the inside with attachment and fear, purely hanging on to not only...

Jacob Landers
Sep 11, 20207 min read


Autocorrect
He insisted on having a meeting. He had mentioned it a few times, there was excitement in his voice. I was skeptical of it, small group...

Jacob Landers
Aug 31, 20206 min read


A Birthday Trip
Not many people know what it’s like too camp alone. It sounds magical when you first have the idea of it, it sounds enchanting. In the...

Jacob Landers
Aug 19, 202012 min read


Fear Kills Me and Shame Controls My Next Move
On any given day I’ve no idea what direction I am going to go in. It’s a complete roll of the dice when I’m not spiritually centered. A...

Jacob Landers
Aug 10, 20205 min read
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