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i met someone...
This is my standard issue, fall crazy fool for someone only too look at myself and question my sanity. I run right through and start to...

Jacob Landers
Jul 15, 20203 min read
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Thoughts From The Hallway
At some point you have to stop talking, you have to realize that no matter what you say you’ve most likely said it before and it’s...

Jacob Landers
Jul 9, 20206 min read
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Number 5
I woke this morning with fear, for no other apparent reason then I was in fear. Odd the way that works, some may say its anxiety, others...

Jacob Landers
Jul 1, 202015 min read
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When Never Comes
I was close to leaving, I should be on the road in the next few weeks. Apartment packed, van finished, jobs completed. I was supposed to...

Jacob Landers
May 15, 20209 min read
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A Spring Day Tragady
I am searching for the words to tell you a story, to tell tale of a day that I am having trouble organizing the feelings and them putting...

Jacob Landers
May 6, 202011 min read
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4am
My sheets a tangled mess, one of which a person could drown in. The thrashing lasted most of the night, losing pillows, gaining traction...

Jacob Landers
May 1, 20203 min read
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Saturday Morning Thoughts
The TV is stupid, I’ve known nothing more tragic than this contraption slowly picking away at all the smarts I’ve built up over the years...

Jacob Landers
Apr 11, 20205 min read
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I'm One Bad Decision Away From Being Pretty Again
It’s Saturday afternoon, I’m on my couch. Tried to listen to a speaker meeting but the speaker didn’t have a message for me, at least not...

Jacob Landers
Apr 7, 20205 min read
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Does Groundhog Day Really Exist
The definition of Groundhog Day: A situation in which a series of unwelcome or tedious events appear to be recurring in exactly the same...

Jacob Landers
Apr 5, 20205 min read
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Managing My Virus
The apocalypse is dawning and life as we know it will never be the same. We will fall to fever and cough; our insides will turn to soup...

Jacob Landers
Mar 26, 20207 min read
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Meditation Is Not What You Think
During a very brief meditation this morning I had a thought, well I had many thoughts but this one stuck, I’ve come across it before. It...

Jacob Landers
Mar 4, 20206 min read
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Defective Garbage
The insanity is alive and well within my tiny little head. Fear bounces off my heart, rebounding within me and touching all the parts...

Jacob Landers
Feb 28, 20206 min read
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How I've Mistaken Love...
If I could wonder my life away, I don’t know if I would be completely happy. I think I would be close to it, but there is always this...

Jacob Landers
Feb 20, 20205 min read
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A Trip To My Sisters
And here we sit, waiting in the SLO airport to board a flight to Austin to surprise my sister for her birthday. I’m not really the flying...

Jacob Landers
Feb 7, 202011 min read
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Pink Boxes and Purple Hearts
At times I can’t help but get filled with sadness, sadness and grief for all the horrible choices I have made. Sadness and grief for...

Jacob Landers
Jan 29, 20207 min read
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Pulling on Threads
So I’ve talked about this guy I met a couple times, Timber Hawkeye. Can’t really say he was born with that name, be cool if he was. He...

Jacob Landers
Jan 20, 20206 min read
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Momentary Outcome
I grapple with letting go, I mean who doesn’t right. We get into comfort and do not let go due to fear. I was just talking to a guy at a...

Jacob Landers
Jan 6, 20205 min read
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My Socks Don't Match
I sit to write but I have nothing to say, yet my head is filled with so much babbling bullshit. It’s like the speaker and the audience,...

Jacob Landers
Dec 24, 20196 min read
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Baby it's cold outside
Christmas, the most wonderful time of the year. Happiness abound, stockings filled with cheer, cookies and presents! As a child it was...

Jacob Landers
Dec 21, 20196 min read
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What Just Happened
I’d like to say I can’t remember the last time I was in love, but I do. It was one of the craziest experiences of my life. I didn’t know...

Jacob Landers
Dec 12, 20196 min read
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